My Why

A few years ago I started to feel restless. The cooking-cleaning-grocery-errand-laundry-chauffeur-cycle of my daily life was becoming repetitive and mundane.  Simple things that once brought me joy no longer had the same effect.  

Looking back, I had gone from college to career to husband to children in one decade, and it was fun and fulfilling and full of growth.  In the next decade, I left my career and became a stay-at-home mom.  I learned to cook, took up photography, moved across the country 3 times in 5 years, learned to live in new cities, decorated a few houses and soaked up all of the moments with my babies when they were little and at home with me all day.  I loved that decade of life.  For the first time ever, I was content and not striving for the next thing, yet I was learning and growing in so many ways.  I had everything I ever wanted.  

Fast forward, and my kids are in the tween/teen stage.  They need me, but in different ways now.  Being a mom is still my number one priority, but it is no longer all-consuming.  We’re settled in California, and we’ve been here for 7+ years, which is the longest I've lived in any one place since I was a child.  I’m happy and life is really good, but I’m no longer content.  I’m no longer growing at the rapid pace I desire. 

Thus began my search for a deeper meaning in my life - my “why” that would propel me into the second half of life and make the hard work of busting out of my comfort zone worth it.  I started by getting curious.  I joined Rachel Hollis’ Last 90 Day Challenge, which led me to her book “Girl Wash Your Face.”  I didn’t just read the book; I used it as a workbook and applied each chapter to my life.  I felt the concept that I was "made for more" in my bones, and I was hungry for it.  I started taking in new content from people like Ed Mylett and Brooke Castillo.  I started paying attention to my life and the things that gave me energy.  I started taking steps forward without knowing exactly where I was headed but with faith I would figure it out.  I attended my first Tony Robbins event and 8 months later attended my second event, which impacted me in ways I never could have dreamed.  I found myself, and I found my "why" - serving you.